this past weekend.

I had goals this weekend. serious. goals.
one of them included finally buying a MacBook air.
since I used a mac when I interned a few years ago
in a marketing & communications department,
I had been wanting one for myself.

the problem?
they’re expensive.

for the last three years, I had known it was going to happen.
as a writer, the mac felt right and as someone who wanted
to learn about photoshop, the MacBook seemed perfect
for just that.

so Saturday, I got up, ran some errands which included the apple store.
I had it all picked out and after an hour or so of issues,
{apple store had problems that day…should have taken it as a sign},
my MacBook was in my hands and I was on my way home to obsess.

when it came time to open the box up {which is fancier than any packaging I’ve seen}
I opened it up and was sad to realize how little excitement I had.
I brushed the doubtful feelings aside and turned that baby on.
playing around with it, it felt familiar and I thought, “I could do this.”
then I opened iTunes. and that is when it hit me……

how can I copy a playlist to a CD when there is no place to insert one…?
oh, how I was disappointed, but happy in a way, too.
I had doubt for a reason and I should have listened to it.

so the next day, I took the walk of shame back into the apple store.
sucked up my frustration as the guy who processed my return gave me a look
and I walked out of there happy with my decision.

so now…now, I am on the hunt for a computer. but not a mac.
anyone else have to recently make some hard decisions?


enjoying the sights of autumn everywhere i go.

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 it’s been a bit warm around here ever since fall made its official debut. the sights scream fall, but the upper 70 degree weather shouts summer. not sure how I feel about that seeing I was pretty pumped for fall to finally be here. I guess I should take it as a good thing…we are getting a little bought of warm weather before winter starts. which, hello, is sooner than we think. The Hallmark Channel is already advertising for their Christmas season. not that I am not excited. I just want to be in the moment. it’s fall. not summer and not winter.

and while it’s sometimes frustrating, gosh I love living where I do. we get every season and I am going to live each of them to the fullest.

happy fall, everyone!

little notes.

dear grapefruit,

I’ve become a new fan of yours. I’d Never tried you for breakfast or lunch but am pretty excited about this.
dear dell computer,
I will miss you after all of our manuscripts and college essays together. but I’m getting a mac soon and I.CANNOT.WAIT.
dear snoring,
you embarrass  me so much. you can go away now.
dear fall weather,
hello! thank you so much for coming. i love you
dear week,
please be gentle on me. the last couple of have been a little rough. I’m ready for a break already. weekend, please come.
dear scary movies,
I really do enjoy you, but the movie Annabelle is going to kill me. oh and  buy and the fault in our stars which came out on DVD last week and i now own you.
dear fall, thanksgiving and Christmas,
i won’t say who, but somebody is getting really excited to enjoy you this year because I feel like I was robbed of you last year.

monday was the most perfect autumn day.

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i went into work on monday with a huge smile on my face.
the weather was perfect and it’s officially autumn TODAY.
the colors on the trees are changing.
and if you close your eyes, you can kind of smell october.
which, by the way, smells phenomenal.
I’m ready for pumpkins. I’m ready for leaves. I’m ready for more days like Monday
where I can wear my new favorite boots and sweaters and scarves
and order a hot drink from my local coffee shop.
I’m ready for you, autumn. come on full force.

writing a manuscript.

it’s one of the most infuriating, frustrating, hair tearing out process I’ve ever gone through.
but it’s the most rewarding and fulfilling thing I have done {besides fundraising} in my life.

there are nights where I am up two-thirty in the morning because I couldn’t, physically and mentally, stop writing.
and then there are the moments of pure doubt. I can’t tell you how often I’ve written a scene over to hopefully make it have more impact on the reader.

last week I gave my lovely friend, Marilyn, a copy of my manuscript. I reached the point where I had an editorial reviewer give her take on it and I had made the changes {and then some} on it, but couldn’t move forward unless I had someone to talk back and forth with on it.

the moment I hit send, I was nervous. for many reasons. but mostly because someone was going to be reading my work…and then giving me all of her thoughts. the good and the bad.

this manuscript means so much to me. it’s going to mean so much to someone else, I just know it. this book is like my child {and I say that now before I have any kids and I will probably kick myself for comparing words to children someday…but it’s a metaphor. ‘kay?} and further down the road, I hope someone in the publishing industry sees and feels the potential I see and feel. I just need to make sure it’s ready before I expose it to the world.

my friend max provides an array of services for writers and, if anything, I recommend the editorial review. check her out.


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i am thankful for pumpkin spice lattes,
those funny new {or not so new} Dorito commercials,
friendly passerybys who offer a smile back,
September finally being here.
i am looking forward to taking time in the morning to walk and just be present before my day starts,
making lists that count and actually accomplishing them,
camping in the cooler weather,
making pumpkin pies, chili and zucchini bread with my mama.
i know it’s only the middle of the month and fall isn’t here yet,
but i wish you all a beautiful season.
 thanks for reading.


what’s cookin, good lookin!

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I shocked a few friends this weekend when I showed them this apple pie and told them there were no apples in it.

confused, they asked how it was possible. and I explained to them that it tastes, looks and feels like apple pie, but in place of apple slices are zucchini.

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my mom’s been making it for years and actually much more that has zucchini hidden inside: zucchini bread, mock crab cakes and a really yummy zucchini casserole.

we’ve tricked a lot of people over the years and some still don’t believe us.
just don’t judge it until you try it!


here’s to a {mostly} bad week turned around.

after Wednesday, my week turned around. here are some of my loves that turned my mood back up.

i love the new crisp feel outside as summer ever so slowly comes to an end. the smells of autumn around the corner is SO good.
i love that this means it’s time to bring out all of my favorite sweaters in my closet, and put my tank tops and summer shirts in the back. it’s a good day when that happens, guys. i also love seeing my scarves and hats and knowing that wearing them is just around the corner. oh, and knitting. i do a lot of knitting in the fall.pull out the sweaters, scarves and hats.   and am wearing them faithfully around the apartment while
i love drinking apple cider and darker red nail polish to go with the colors of fall.

i love knowing I can wear boots soon and put my flip flops to rest. boots are SO much better.
i love my study guides and learning more about my faith. and also wearing my favorite cozy sweater while completing this week’s guide. those guides bring such strength and joy into my life.
i love baking. and I love how baking in the fall {and dare I say winter} is a million and one times better than baking in the summer.
i love improving in my room…little by little.
i love movement. i love my space. i love music. and i especially love this. {and yes, it makes me cry and gives me crazy harsh goosebumps}.
i love my life. i do. even when it’s hard and confusing {this week had it’s moments. but Thursday started to really look up}. and i am thankful for all of it.
I love family. and I love all of them that I got to see since Thursday.