writing a manuscript.

it’s one of the most infuriating, frustrating, hair tearing out process I’ve ever gone through.
but it’s the most rewarding and fulfilling thing I have done {besides fundraising} in my life.

there are nights where I am up two-thirty in the morning because I couldn’t, physically and mentally, stop writing.
and then there are the moments of pure doubt. I can’t tell you how often I’ve written a scene over to hopefully make it have more impact on the reader.

last week I gave my lovely friend, Marilyn, a copy of my manuscript. I reached the point where I had an editorial reviewer give her take on it and I had made the changes {and then some} on it, but couldn’t move forward unless I had someone to talk back and forth with on it.

the moment I hit send, I was nervous. for many reasons. but mostly because someone was going to be reading my work…and then giving me all of her thoughts. the good and the bad.

this manuscript means so much to me. it’s going to mean so much to someone else, I just know it. this book is like my child {and I say that now before I have any kids and I will probably kick myself for comparing words to children someday…but it’s a metaphor. ‘kay?} and further down the road, I hope someone in the publishing industry sees and feels the potential I see and feel. I just need to make sure it’s ready before I expose it to the world.

my friend max provides an array of services for writers and, if anything, I recommend the editorial review. check her out.


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i am thankful for pumpkin spice lattes,
those funny new {or not so new} Dorito commercials,
friendly passerybys who offer a smile back,
September finally being here.
i am looking forward to taking time in the morning to walk and just be present before my day starts,
making lists that count and actually accomplishing them,
camping in the cooler weather,
making pumpkin pies, chili and zucchini bread with my mama.
i know it’s only the middle of the month and fall isn’t here yet,
but i wish you all a beautiful season.
 thanks for reading.


what’s cookin, good lookin!

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I shocked a few friends this weekend when I showed them this apple pie and told them there were no apples in it.

confused, they asked how it was possible. and I explained to them that it tastes, looks and feels like apple pie, but in place of apple slices are zucchini.

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my mom’s been making it for years and actually much more that has zucchini hidden inside: zucchini bread, mock crab cakes and a really yummy zucchini casserole.

we’ve tricked a lot of people over the years and some still don’t believe us.
just don’t judge it until you try it!


here’s to a {mostly} bad week turned around.

after Wednesday, my week turned around. here are some of my loves that turned my mood back up.

i love the new crisp feel outside as summer ever so slowly comes to an end. the smells of autumn around the corner is SO good.
i love that this means it’s time to bring out all of my favorite sweaters in my closet, and put my tank tops and summer shirts in the back. it’s a good day when that happens, guys. i also love seeing my scarves and hats and knowing that wearing them is just around the corner. oh, and knitting. i do a lot of knitting in the fall.pull out the sweaters, scarves and hats.   and am wearing them faithfully around the apartment while
i love drinking apple cider and darker red nail polish to go with the colors of fall.

i love knowing I can wear boots soon and put my flip flops to rest. boots are SO much better.
i love my study guides and learning more about my faith. and also wearing my favorite cozy sweater while completing this week’s guide. those guides bring such strength and joy into my life.
i love baking. and I love how baking in the fall {and dare I say winter} is a million and one times better than baking in the summer.
i love improving in my room…little by little.
i love movement. i love my space. i love music. and i especially love this. {and yes, it makes me cry and gives me crazy harsh goosebumps}.
i love my life. i do. even when it’s hard and confusing {this week had it’s moments. but Thursday started to really look up}. and i am thankful for all of it.
I love family. and I love all of them that I got to see since Thursday.


a special weekend.

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i hope you have a special September weekend.
it’s supposed to be a little cold outside and gloomy
which I am okay with but this up and down weather
is not my favorite.
I will be spending time with family all weekend!
we have a special family member coming from Hawaii
to stay with us for a few days. she love nyc
just like me.
we will get to see lots of family in the next couple of days
which makes me happy.
sunday is my cousin’s first birthday.
this baby is the happiest baby I have ever met
and can’t believe he is one already.
can’t wait to give you lots of hugs, mister grady.
i wish you all a lovely weekend.
i’ll see you on monday!



hi hi hi!
it’s the middle of the week and I couldn’t be happier.
i’ve been watching the show, Grey’s anatomy lately and it’s making me all nostalgic.
i used to watch it in high school with some friends and we would stay up super late and watch half a season. since then, I’ve lost interest in the show but now it’s all I want to watch. There’s only four more seasons until I’m caught up…I can do it right?
anyone else do that?
anyways, it’s Wednesday, guys! half of the week is over. thank goodness.

little notes.


dear Hershey’s dark chocolate,
I had a crappy day yesterday and you seemed like the best solution to that. I tried to talk myself out of buying you, but my not so great monday deserved a little chocolate.
 dear Monday,
you weren’t very nice this week. all day long i couldn’t decide if you were a good day, a sad day, an ugly day or whatever. i was so happy to climb into bed and wake up to Tuesday. so thank you, Monday, for Tuesday. i have high hopes for today.
 dear television channel,
why are there such trashy tv shows on right now? and why do I feel the need to watch you so often?
dear mom,
I think you should make more of your zucchini bread. I have been missing it like crazy and going through withdrawal since you made your last {small} batch a month ago. oh, and your pumpkin pie. cause, you know, autumn is coming up.
dear cold I can feel coming,
please don’t. I really hate being sick and working. and working out. although, it would be a nice excuse…
dear pumpkin spice lattes {with soy} ,
why, oh why, do you have to be so good and so easy to order? my wallet doesn’t like you, but I sure do. you’re my favorite until peppermint mochas come into town.
dear closet,
I am sorry I let you get so crazy inside. I didn’t mean to and I promise I will {eventually} put you back together again.
dear alarm clock,
I’m sorry for wanting to throw you across the room. I know you’re just doing your job, but that 6:45AM wake up call is not my favorite five days a week.
dear running,
please get easier. I want to be able to get stronger and healthier. you’re the way to do it, but I really don’t like you when I am actually running.
dear weekend,
please get here soon. I need to enjoy the cooler and gloomy weather in all its glory and this week just needs to be over with. I miss sleeping in and not rushing anywhere.