Monday, June 30, 2014

it's my birthday month!

it's going to be a warm one here, ohio. but i don't care because IT'S MY BIRTHDAY MONTH!!!!! {24 seems less scary than 23...}
oh, and i would love to go back to put in bay to explore some more.
all i want for my birthday is a gigantic chocolate cake with tons and tons of frosting. seriously. I've already asked for it. with eating healthier these days, when i can "cheat" i want to cheat.

and it's my birthday and i'll eat cake if i want to.

happy july, lovelies.

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

words so very true.

I had a harder than usual "get up and go" day yesterday. I didn't want to work out. I did 15 minutes and wanted to quit. I just wasn't feeling it and feeling very self conscious. But then I pushed those feelings out if my head, switched my run from the treadmill to the track and something changed. Suddenly, it felt like I was freaking flying on the track as I ran. It felt so smooth and good, and I ran longer than I have in awhile. It actually hurt to stop. I don't want to stop today. But I woke up to these words on a great Facebook, workout motivation page, and I had to smile. It's so true. And it's hard to wait, but the little changes I see EVERY day are just beautiful. They are uplifting and remind me I'm doing everything I possibly can to get in shape and healthy. I can't wait to look in the mirror in a month to see how much the last two months have made a difference. I won't give up. I won't stop. I will get there.

Monday, June 23, 2014

i prefer this

it's seven o'clock and a new monday is here.  I'm sitting here with my coffee, in my favorite NYC mug, and I am wishing that this morning and afternoon will go by quickly. it's going to be a long day.

i have decided that I need to learn to multi-task better. with my own life. at work? oh, i can be having three different conversations, four email boxes open and still get everything done and in the right way.

my routine for the day has already started. get up, coffee, English muffin, work for eight hours, straight to the gym for an hour and a half, home, catch up on thing outside of work and the gym, shower, sleep. maybe some writing in there, maybe some friends in there. I'm still getting used to it, okay?

this weekend didn't feel like a weekend. it was gloomy and hot...happy first day of official summer!

anyways. i want this week to be the best it can be. i want to zoom through my day, kill it at the gym and come home feeling satisfied. i have been doing very well, you see. I've lost close to ten pounds...and counting. it feels amazing, but i want more. i want to see more, i want to feel more. it's a struggle, let's be real. when there is so much good, bad, food around you, and you have to say no time and time gets exhausting. but i am so excited about this journey. it's slow and painful {at times} but oh, so worth it. i just feel so busy.

but i prefer that, though. i am happy to be busy.

i promise i had more to say in my head, but i think i am still trying to wake up. so for now, here are the most random thoughts from a girl so early in the morning.

have a good day, lovelies.

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

four reasons why i love my life

1. i have the best family in the world. period.

2. this weekend was pretty close to perfection

3. i finally fit into a pair of jeans that have never fit the right way. until now.

4. i saw the fault in our stars two weeks ago, and it was the best thing i ever did see.

{seriously, though. this girl is pretty happy and content.}

oh, and i have a girl crush on Shailene Woodley. and a full blown crush on augustus waters.



Wednesday, June 11, 2014

a little infinity

there are no words to properly describe my feelings for The Fault in Our Stars. I knew I was going to love it. the second I finished the book and was able to think straight, I knew it would be everything. and it was. everything and more.

my mom and I had both read the book. me before her, and I promised her she would love it. I think she did, and she finished it within days just like I did. there's something pretty cool when you have something like that to share with your mom or dad. we went to see the movie Friday, and all last week, that was all I could think about.

we got into an earlier showing than we thought we could, and we sat down and the movie started within minutes. hazel grace {played by Shailene Woodley -- she killed it. she is Hazel Grace} and augustus waters are by far two of my favorite characters in a novel, and on screen. they were perfection, and I wish I could tell them that in person. it was a movie about cancer, without it being about cancer. it was the love story between two beautiful souls you can't help but fall in love with. it's an honest story about the relationship between parents and their children who are dying from this awful disease.

I came out feeling humbled, thankful, sad, hopeful, and so connected to these characters. I literally, and I am not kidding, have not been able to stop thinking about it. I want to see it again. I was happy to share the moment seeing the movie with my mom. it was so special.

the one thing I was so mad about was the group sitting in front of us and next to us. it was the group of women and their daughters. the moms sat next to us, and the daughters in front of us. they were no older than twelve and there were six of them. they laughed through the entire movie. the sad parts, the gut wrenching painful parts {uhm, hello, Gus, AKA Ansel Elgort, screaming and crying out of pain and frustration at the end of the movie} and the beautiful and emotional moments between the two characters. even when the death came...they laughed. I wanted to scream. I wanted to get up, pull up my sleeve and show them the scars across my shoulder and neck and show them there is nothing funny about cancer. no matter what kind. they didn't ruin it, but gosh, parents...don't bring your KIDS to a movie so emotionally heavy if they are not mature enough for it. and secondly, if you, women in your 30's and 40's, aren't mature enough for it, I recommend seeing the latest How I Met Your's probably more your speed.

sorry. rant over. it was just so disrespectful to the time these people put into this movie and all of the emotions they brought to the screen.

please, go see it.  bring some tissues...a loved one...and have plans for something happy after. it's worth the tears. it will teach something about life:
be thankful for your little infinity.